So NIC finally let me register for my pittle-ey three classes. Sessions start August 22. Um...I JUST got back June 24~ WHAT! I have barely had a summer. :( I have had one paycheck..for 6 hours...I'm screwed. WHERE did summer go!!! Half my life feels like it has transpired since I was in friggin rehab for what seems like a zillion years. (yes I'm old- I bathed with dinosaurs.)
I'm so nervous (and that is the understatement of the year...)Scared that my brain will just shut down on me when I'm trying to learn cause I'm ridiculous like that. What if I can't find my classes? HOW am I going to get to and from school since my dad needs our ONE vehicle for work? Gosh..I'm going to have to take the bus...AHHHHCK have you seen the people who ride the bus...I'm definitely gonna got crack pushed on me...great. Well this will be a perfect opportunity to perfect my angry face....grrrrrr. Scared yet? Shooooot
Most of all..I'm terrified of failing. :( It is so much easier to live in the emptiness and silence that has become normal...accepted. But now I have to take a leap of faith outside my comfort zone.
So I did school before. Maybe I can do it now... Orrrrr again..maybe I will just start a TV show with my many...many cats. Stay tuned.
