This morning during my daily A.A. meeting, the speaker was talking about fear, doubt, and resentment. Another woman shared on her study of the Four Agreements~
"Be Impeccable With Your Word: Speak with integrity. Say only what you mean.
Avoid using the word to speak against yourself or to gossip about others. Use
the power of your word in the direction of truth and love."
I began reflecting upon how I speak to myself. And it struck me how cruel I am. How perturbing my dialogue truly is to my inner child. I thought about how I would speak to a little girl, my own child-thank God I don't have mini Me's running around the world :O But if I did, how would I treat her? The same way I treat myself? Calling her fat, worthless, disgusting, and broken. Would I tell her she was a mistake and a failure and that she won't be able to do anything right in life?
The thought made me queasy. That is not how my mother treated me, and I HOPE and pray to God that no child has to hear those words come out of ANY ONES mouth, especially their own mothers!
I would treat my child with unconditional love and understanding~ I would hold her and wipe her tears away, comfort her when she was fearful, and whisper how much I loved her.
Is that how I am treating myself? Um...not even close. But it definitely made me think. We accept the love we feel we deserve. We treat people how to treat us. We get back what we put out into the world. What am I putting out? A mousy, victimized aura? Or a strength and courageousness that could only come from one place: My higher power~
Happy mother's day to all the mom's. And to my belly button mom who loves me unconditionally and has supported me through thick and thin~ I would not be where I am today without all of you~ <3
