I go now to embark upon this journey~ My life is literally in the hands of the Lord. I am terrified. I don’t want to go. I don’t see what all the others see. But I keep hearing the same thing repeated over and over~ TRUST. So this I do. I go blindly into this again…distorted, broken, terrified.
However, I go with God. I go with many people who miraculously and somehow love me. I am undeserving. I am awed at the amount of support and love I have felt~ I am speechless. Incredulous at the love- the sheer unconditional love- I have been given- that has been POURED out on me. From one section of the country to the other~ LITERALLY from Washington DC to Washington state the prayers and love keep pouring out. I don’t understand what you see in me. All I can do is go back and hope that maybe, I will catch a glimpse, a taste of what you all see.
This is to the wonderful family in Montana who has kept me alive this last month~ The Hofmans. I cannot describe how much I love you and how much I owe to you~ To my church family here at LoneRock~ Thank you so much for your prayers and support this past month~
To my family in Coeur d Alene~ To my beloved parents and brothers who I love with all my heart and more~ I LOVE YOU ALL FOREVER To my family in Wisconsin and Michigan~ To my aunts and uncles and cousins and grandparents whom I love~
To the Torres Family, the Newton family, the Slavens family, to Holly and Katy~ TO ALL my loved ones in CDA Idaho~
To those in Moscow who I love so much! Katie, Sarah D. Sarah V, Josina, Chantel W, John, Patrick, Mr. A. Brown, Heidi~ TO EVERYONE IN MOSCOW
To my Rosewood and ANJ treatment buddies~ THANK YOU ALL so much for your understanding and love and care~ If I can be any testament to you, please hear this. STICK TO THE PLAN~ STAY THE PATH though it is soooo hard. PLEASE fight as I fight in Arizona~ we fight again together, though apart. This insidious disease cannot take a ONE of us. NO NO NO! I will not allow it! STAY STRONG and ROSES! J
To those on my treatment team who I owe so much to~ to the doctors, my therapist and my dietitian~ THANK you for keeping me alive.
I go now in the name of the Lord. He is my strength. I am weak. I should be and wish at times that I were dead. If I don’t go now…I will not make it. Yes, it would be easier. But I have never done the easy thing. I am stubborn as heck. And I cannot allow ED to take my life. I want to die at the ripe old age of a zillion, climbing mountains and living the life GOD wants me to live- NOT ED.
WITH CHRIST ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE! HE WILL SET ME FREE~ BIND SATAN FROM ME O LORD~ KICK THIS IN THE CROTCH! J
JEREMIAH 29:11~
To ALL my readers, to everyone- In the great words of some famous military man I can’t think of: I WILL BE BACK! (he he) And you will all have to deal with me some moreJ This aint goodbye- this is see ya in a tad. GOD IS GOOD. I LOVE YOU ALL. SEE YOU SOOOOOOOOON
· Please note that my brain is foggy, I am completely forgetful and if I forgot to say THANK YOU to ANYONE HERE IS TO EVERYONEEEEEE! THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!
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Attn: Winter G
36075 S Rincon Road
Wickenburg, AZ 85390
