Fourth of July~
Hundreds of years ago this country was founded by the brave men who walked and died before us~ They fought to bring us freedom, equal opportunity, and the chance to live a life free of oppression from the forces of the British and the tyrannical rule of the King.
I spent my fourth of July in Arizona in treatment yet again for my eating disorder, a battle I have been fighting as long as I can remember. Today I am thankful-so very thankful for freedom. For the opportunity to live in a country that allows me to speak my opinion and use my voice without being condemned or punished for doing so. I am mostly grateful today, though, from my freedom today from ED. Yes, I have my good and bad days and still there are times I hear nothing but his conniving voice screaming in my head. I don't love my body on any terms. However, today I was able to go for my first walk in four months, properly nourish my body according to my dietitian, attend A.A. and fellowship with the men and women there, and have some fun and laughs with the women around me fighting the same fight everyday- the fight for our lives. The fight to overthrow our demons~ To kill ED. To declare independence from the scale, from the mirror, from the self defeating thoughts that take us down faster than any bullet or sword ever could. I stand today praising my Leader and Captain who has a whole militia of angels around me praying for me and supporting me. I am so very grateful for my friends and family who have been there for me every step of my journey.
This journey has been long~ 5 months and still counting. It ends here at Capri in two weeks. Where I will be heading on July 17th I am uncertain of still. But I know God will provide me with the finances and the means of doing so. He has gotten me this far and I know He has a plan for my continued recovery.
For all those who fought and died for me and for this country- thank you. To all those who have fought and prayed for me and my redemption- THANK YOU. And to my Higher Power who is freeing me every single day from the bondage of my addictions- THANK YOU~
Happy Independence Day~
