The University of Idaho just celebrated a win for their Homecoming
game~ Simultaneously, Heaven is celebrating the arrival of an amazing woman~
I found out recently that a wonderful woman I went to
treatment in Arizona with several years ago passed away from acute pancreatitis due
to years of alcohol abuse and bulimia. I am shocked. My heart breaks for the
family. It was a huge wake up call. This shit is real. And it takes lives. This
woman was beyond strong. She was smart, beautiful, eloquent, athletic, and
talented in so many ways. She was a daughter, a friend, a woman of God. And her
life was cut short but this sick disease. Ravaged by years of ED, her body
could not take it anymore. At 21 years old…this terrifies me. As it should.
Yet, the deceitfulness of my disease will tell me that I am immortal. I am
exempt from the effects of Anorexia or Bulimia. But the truth is, that could be
any one of us. I wish I could open up the eyes of those who suffer to the
truth. I wish I could believe it myself. That we are more than this shell. We
no longer have to suffer because HE took that suffering for us. It seems an
impossible cycle to break when you have been living this way for so long…Sometimes
I wonder if it is possible to live free of it…All I can do is live one day at a
time…and pray to God for strength~
I miss you sweet girl. I pray that you have found solace
from the demands of this disgusting disease…Comfort from the storm. And a soft
place to finally lay your weary head. Your life will not be forgotten, your
death will not be in vain. Here is to your Homecoming, love.
R.I.P
